The one where she tries to blog

It finally caught up with me. 

The only person I can blame is myself. 

I still don’t have the answers. 

I’ve never felt so lonely in my life.

I honestly don’t know what I want. I don’t know what I’ll want in the future.

I’m sorry for the uncertainty. I’m sorry for pussing out. 

I hope everything is going okay. 

I’m really sorry. 

once everyone finds out how old I am I get hella babied

like um excuse you but I’m eighteen AND A HALF

I thought that I wouldn’t have to deal with webadvisor ever again

but here I am

Micah and I went to the WalMart near my apartment today and we asked one of the few english speaking workers if they had any chocolate chips and she was like

“…………………………………………we have them….sometimes……..”

sometimes?! 

she acted like chocolate chips were a seasonal thing 

I just sent marcos and sarah fan mail

I hope you guys see it

<3. 

I’ve been doing college related stuff all morning and I’m exhausted

I don’t know how I’m going to do this

I need all the support I can get

words of encouragement?

the moral of the last post:

don’t be a lazy fuck and just apply for free money

Okay so I have about 20 days to figure out how to pay for about $15,000 worth of my tuition.

Here are some things I wish I wasn’t:

• Lazy
• a level 100 procrastinator

but I’m just going to stay up all night doing scholarships.

I just really wish I realized that “oh yeah I kinda need money to pay for school” sooner. Like, fuck. How am I going to pay for school? I couldn’t get a cosigner for student loans so I can’t even do that. 

trying to be optimistic but blah

I honestly can’t comprehend the amount of stress that I’m under

jesus

JESUS.